Prince's favourite picture...
Prince

Prince = Me = Prince
Prince

19 Feb 2005 - in RUSH....Mr Logas (middle) became the RUSH man of the year...
Prince

Can DREam come TRue...NigHtMare...

What is nightmare? Do you ever have nightmare before? Can dream come true at last?
It is hard to say though. I use to dream about falling down from staircase, the next day when I was collecting my exam result, I failed my English paper. I once dreamed about my dog being hit by a car, and two days later, he die of disease. There are many other incidents that have happened to me, which related to my dream sometimes. I wonder if our dream has any connection with our real life. Have you ever had dream before? And that it relates to your life?

Word of MOUth....

Word of mouth plays a vital role in our life. You may be surprise to find out how many updates we receive in life through word of mouth.

Word of mouth is a spoken communication, and highly valued by organization. I believe you experience that in you life, when an accident occurs in any where, or your friend is getting married or etc.... You tend to spread the occurrence to your friend through word of mouth. Human being has the tendencies to tell their counterpart something that they deem interesting, or something that they know. It is another form of informal communication in our daily life.

People trend to believe in people that they talk to, I would sometime rather categories it as rumor, rumor just like word of mouth moving fast enough to penetrate the crowd. However, rumor wasn’t support by fact.

SMile........

I always believe that Smile is the best medicine in life; I wake up every morning, smiling in from of my lovely mirror, to start my day, and believe me, because it works well. Once a guy told me, laughing is the best medicine because it can help not only release your stress, but also exercises your muscle. People who laugh often tend to reflect their friendliness. Smiles contribute significantly to human relationship. People, who tend to smiles, ultimately help to reduce the defense system of a person that they converse to.

A smile is generated internally, similar to laughter. You need to feel happy, excited and most importantly release. Smiling can be infectious, why don’t you give it a try today, and smile to people around you.

The Circle...We bond to see EaCH other...

I came across a theory during my MBA class on Sunday. We are talking about connection, in many ways. There’s a movie, telling the story of a few people who lead a different life, and something happen in their life that they eventually, all met up with each other, and know each other. It was like a circle of friends, who don’t even know each other, suddenly bang into each other life.

The story tells us that whenever we make a decision, although that particular decision relates only to you personally, but the decision can still affect other people or people around you that you may not realize. How interesting is it to find out that we are actually subconsciously link to each other, and meet up only when the opportunities have come.

Geraline's BirthDAY...

It was pretty rushed today; somehow, it was Geraldine’s birthday. I was assigned to prepare a cake for her, and give her a little surprise. In fact, this role of playing surprise supposes to belong to Mr.S#m (not to mention full name) though! Somehow, he is not around!

I have to arrive at Mont Kiara Coffee Bean early, in fact, they are late. I hand the cake over to barista, and they will help to light the candle for me when we are all ready.

Time flies through fast enough, and it’s almost 12pm, we spotted Cat arrival (another friend of us), and we started to light the candle and sing a birthday song to Geraline. It was fun, and we are trying to stick the cake on her face, somehow, we fail to do so, but at least the cream stick all over her hair then!

We took a lot of picture that night; I found out that digital camera has become part of our lives, and that pictures have brought a significant meaning to us. By looking through our picture, stir many laughter and memory.

Happy Birthday to Geraline…!

Seduction STYles....What's yours...

Logas asked us to try the pesonality test, which, test your seduction style, unfortunately i fall into below category.....

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Falling in LoVE? How does it feels?????

How is it feel when you falling in love with someone? I start the confusion again, perhaps, I have never thought of that before? I start to ask myself. Does falling in love mean, you always think of the good time with someone? Does it mean you can’t afford not to see someone? Or does that mean you expect to see her in some time to come and waiting anxiously for it? While typing out my curiosity, the thinking process is progressing. I need to find out myself, to dig out my feeling and further evaluate if this is mean falling in love or just another emotion trap that I plan for myself to step in.

Outing...Relationship...Get Hook-Up....

We plan to hang around at Coffee Bean; somehow, we ended up in leisure mall, a café around Taman Segar. It’s a newly set-up café with just a small number of people over there. We order a jug of beer. In fact, I can’t really finish it. I think Beer has just left my life, being replaced with strong liquor though. Cat and Logas are chatting, and we start to talk about our ex- girlfriend, and what would be our perception toward relationship.

I have always considered relationship as a two ways communication and sacrifice. I am a person with quite a character. Cat asked me how I can fall in love. Personally, I will not engage myself in aggressive courting that would prove other about “Love is blind”. Meanwhile, I will only engage in the process of pursuing if I found myself having fondness for her, at the same time, she likes me too.

I certainly will not go ahead with it if the fondness only comes from one side, either she or me. That’s my perception, I do like to believe that a tough move will impress the opposite sex, even though; they do not have the fondness initially. But, I prefer to believe that a relationship would kick start only when fondness is ignited between couples, naturally.

Relationship is supposed to be aesthetic, not materialistic. If that you have to impress some one to light to fondness in her or him, that won’t be a long term relationship, and the possibility that you being carried away by the emotion of the moment is high! Eventually, the balance of love will not exist; you tend to realize, you love her more than she love you or either way!

Come back to our hangout in the café, there’s a PR lady accompanies us. When we took off, she was waiting at the door for so long, looking at me. I show a sign of asking for her number, I assume that she won’t give me, because PR was not allow to give out their personal number. However, I ask a favor from Logas to collect the number, since i am reversing my car.

Reluctantly, Logas went down the car. I thought he going to get a rejection though, who know he came back with a number. Yes, he got it. We got the first call from ‘May’, in my car asking me to drive slowly. Ok, that’s pretty weird though. After the day, she called me a few times, but I wasn’t able to communicate properly with her. She can only understand Cantonese, and I can’t really converse well in Cantonese.

Not there anymore...

After my decision to join another company, my heart is simply not here anymore. I need to go somewhere, whereby, I can bring significant change to company, and hit my career aspiration. I am more like a problem-solver to many companies, and leave good pace in ach of the company I joined before, even this one. I desperately need to plan and leave my pace in this new company. I can’t tell how long I am going to stay there, but certainly, with my existence, a significant change is necessary.

THAI CluB..L#G@s.....HAng Over.......

We went to Thai Club today, feeling reluctant to go due to the level of tiredness. However, since I have promised earlier, it will not be nice to stood Logas up. I brought myself with not so enjoyable feeling into Thai Club.

The ambience is a bit different though, I can’t see anyone dancing around us. Furthermore, there’re only 5 of us, promising 15 people at the end of the day.

Somehow, one by one coming in to join us, and we have around 10 people with us, the funny thing is, we ordered 2 bottle of Vodka, and our friend Logas finished almost half or a bottle of it.
He cheers with almost every table around us, and made a lot of friends. He almost hooks up with a chick though.

At the end of the day, he can’t even walk straight back, and know what, I have to lead him back, and he puke a few times, the last time he puke, I manage to snap a picture of him. Something happen at that night though…tu…tu…tu…tu… censored!

Fortune-TeLLER...Believe it OR nOt...

A 78 years old man told me that I am a smart guy who owns a bright future. He convincingly spill out his word that I would be very rich in future. He even guarantee his word, saying that I will thank him after 10 years time, but he may not be around already, perhaps, what I can do is to visit him at his yard, and said he never goes wrong.

I have never believed in fortune-teller but myself. Scene start to flash through my mind, from the past few years, many fortune-tellers that I came across by luck, has said the same thing to me, but, rich is a subjective topic. How rich can a person be then? I still remember one of them categorized me as a dragon or phoenix, being kept in the cave that is waiting for the right moment, to fly out and fly high. He asked me to bear with it for a few years, and times will come. But who would know what will happen in a few years down the road?

Who AM i ar...

Talking about who I am again has led me to a serious ponder. I still remember how innocent and immature I am last time. I was being a passive person, transforming myself into a mature, with a standard and professional gentleman. I have always reminded myself to improve every year; perhaps, this is the kind of mindset that brings me direction in life, at the same time, it results a lost in me.

I still remember I was compliment on my maturity in thinking. A friend of mine describes me as a 24 years old chap with 30 years old thought! That troubles me a lot, because I don’t realize the transformation has taken place, and generate such a major impact on my personality and behavior.

I start to wonder, who I am now, and who I am a few years back, and who I will be a few year down the road. I still remember, I read a lot of psychology book, practicing change in my own life. I still remember I read the back ground and history of our great leaders, and learn how they behave and see things. I adopt the best of each leader, making me a person with multi-facet, who is able to excel, mix within any circle of friends.

I was advised to adopt a more advance thinking in every facet of my life. When I read a book, I was force to ask the question of “How it happens and how they did it”, but now, it has become a norm for me to ask the question instead of being force. I treat the forcing period as my learning process, and it is over.

Many of us actually ask the question of “what happen” when reading the story. To be able to think advance, and better than any other, we need to ask “How it happens”. If a leader successfully implemented certain measure, then, we need to know what kind of behavior he adopts to push for happening.

I still remember I read the story of “Lee Ka Sing” from Hong Kong, the story tells how he becomes rich, but, I was so obsess with the way he see thing and behave. He has his principle of treating his staff. And he has his principles of what can not do and can do! He mentions that one factor that contributes to his success is to treat everyone with sincerity & honesty, and that has become part of me now……

chatting with C...

I have a chat with someone I like today, and touching on family topic. She told me she is not a career-lady; she is more into family-oriented lady. I start to believe when the old one keep saying, the ultimate dream of a lady is to have a happy family, with care-loving husband and a few fun-loving children. Who does not wish to enjoy that dream though?

For a man, also wishes to see someone he loves every morning, with a passionate morning kiss to start the day, or perhaps, a simple breakfast to fill the stomach, and to be able to see their children running up and down, calling him ‘daddy’. Perhaps, that’s the simplest life that a man and woman can expect.

I still remember my parent always advise me with their experience. They assume the world is filled with materialistic that involves physical transaction in our daily life, that money is inevitably, something you can not live without. A family can only be happy to live without worry of money.

They asked, how you can be happy, if you are stuck with loan, and that you are barely enough to support the family. Judging from my parent experience, even though, both of them working toward supporting the family and brought us up. They barely enjoy the luxurious of life, even the sibling are being kept away from luxurious. That gives me an aspiration to strive harder for a better life, to bring myself and my family up the considerable level of income group, and be in the elite society.

My personal believe in a family, is to be able to give my wife everything she wishes to, and to provide my parents everything they needs. Meanwhile, to be able to support my children study, further nurture them to become a better person in future. In order to do that, I must be able to have a strong financial base that can provide my parent, my wife, my children and me, a freedom of choice. I must be able to choose what I want without worrying about money.

Company doesn't wana let go........so........Pit lar...

As I accepted the offer from Atis Corporation, here comes another problem. My current company does not want to grant me an early release. As stated in confirmation letter, which clearly spilled out that, I have to serve two months notice, but my new company urgently needs my service. Thus, I wrote an appeal letter to my immediate superior for an early release at which he has approved it reluctantly.

I thought it was the end of the story, but it wasn’t. Somehow, my vice President can overrule the approval. I approach another Vice President who happens to be my previous reporting superior before the change of reporting line took place, and he approved my appeal.

However, also do not forget the fact that I have change reporting line; thus, have to at least, inform my current Vice President. I thought I can escape her queries but not, I approached her in her office, with assumption that it’s going to be a tough persuasion. Eventually, the discussion don’t even last more than five minutes, and I was asked to write down my responsibilities and hand-over procedures, then she will look at it and decide. She said it shouldn’t be any problem and need to look at it first. Let’s hope I can start a new career then…

Sri Hartamas...Part 02...

We have a good chat, and that we want to further discuss. We continue our night in Uncle Don, a restaurant in Sri Hartamas. Then we start to obsess with photo taking. We took a lot of picture tonight, as to keep it as a memory to ourselves. I must say, it is a long night to go, we chat from a serious topic in life, to a frivolous chatting, creating a lot of laughter.

I feel so reluctant to go back, probably; I also believe that happy moment does not last long in life, and that I want to extend it longer. We went for pool in Pandan Indah and hang around till 4pm. Even though, each of us, filled with tiredness which reflect on our expression, but we still enjoy the moment together.

Mont Kiara..Part 01...

What can be better than hanging out with friends, and discuss about our future and experience in life and career. That is what I did tonight, with Logas, Sim, and Catherine & Kitty, in Mont Kiara Coffee Bean. Many valuable & precious experience are being discussed, which has led to a good learning in the process.

Logas was quite surprise that I am such a serious person when touching on topic in life. He thought I was just another clubber in his list of friend, but eventually I am not. It reminds me about my direction in life again, and the sacrifice that I have made during the transformation process that involves friendship, love and family.

We are talking about how to excel in career, and the type of mindset that we need to adopt. Again, I advise them to adopt a more advance mindset, which advances in such a way that exceeds people expectation. And this can only happen if you adopt another mindset that could remind you to adopt an “advance mindset”. Nothing can be more controversy than this.

Human thought is complex in such a way that you must not stop your brain from function ing effectively. I still remember when I took my economic paper in college, taught me about the economy cycle. It spurs my thought as much as I do. The occurrence of one activity can ultimately leads to the occurrence of another activity. It’s just like our thinking, sometimes, when you made a decision, or selecting your future route, you just have to think of it as a cycle of life, which involves backward and forward thinking in the process. That could eventually spurs your mind, thus, giving you the maturity level in handling your life and career, better and more effective.

Accepted the Offer...

I have accepted the offer from a listed company, Atis Corporation Sdn Bhd, and with much doubt, turning down another good prospect which offers me a higher salary and opportunity for oversea posting.

I do not know if I make the right choice, but certainly, a lot of contemplation has been through lately. No one would know if a choice is right or wrong, unless you really step you foot into the journey.

Sometimes, that is the risk you have to take. Before that, I was so worry about getting into another new job, surviving in a new environment, meeting with new people and new objective to be set. I have received advices and recommendations from many parties, and at last, decision has been made.

I always try not to be carried away by the moment, neither emotionally affected in making a decision about my future route, nor being affected by other factors in life. It really involves a lot of thinking, and evaluation. And, I start to wonder, why we; human-being was given a brain that involves such a complex exploring.

I have been known as a risk-taker, because of my believing that nothing is impossible. But, at the same time, being affected my past underlying personality and behavior who happen to be a risk-averse. I must believe myself, have been transformed into another person, and that changes my personality and behavior. At last, I am still in the transition period, as I hardly believe in it that I am still who I am.

EduLand...

I went to Edu Land Kindergarten today, meeting up with the training and development manager- Vivian. It is a new kindergarten being acquired under Atis Corporation, a public listed company. I went for the first interview with William, who happened to be the CEO of Atis. After a short discussion with him, I found him very nice, kind and he don’t look at his age, because he is already in his fifties and only looked like 40 years old. We have a good chat. He explained to me the career advancement that I can expect working under him. He convinced me that I am able to learn more than any other place by working with Atis. I start to confuse my decision with another company then…

Pain..Pain..Pain...

I started to hate my body. I wake up in the morning, experiencing muscle pain on my neck, worse still, I was suffering from Gastric! My Gastric problem is getting worse as I would say, I have cut down my drinking but due to my busy lifestyle perhaps, my gastric condition has never improve.

I rest for the whole day thinking about last night, it sounds so funny & weird, and that I still can’t believe it.

Dragon Bar......Don't Like it...

After hanging around at Mont Kiara coffee bean, we decide to visit Dragon Bar in Sri Hartamas. I took the offer since I have never been to Dragon Bar before. To my surprise, I find Dragon Bar a considerable venue to hang out, with good music, however, the ambience is different, giving me weird experience.

Perhaps, it was more equipped for teenagers than adult clubber. We had fun, and Kitty Catherine seems to enjoy herself. Logas was sitting alone, excusing himself due to his attire. But, when the music hit the summit, he gets himself involve on the dance floor, dancing like no body business! Meanwhile, in the process, there’s some censored stuff…tu..tu..tu.. That I certainly do not want to spill out here! *relieve*

MBA..Married but Available...

MBA Part 2 finally started, reluctantly, I attended the induction day, bearing with all the boring speech and briefing. I can’t wait to finish my MBA, so that I can join DBA now. I wonder how fast I can go to end my study life. Perhaps, it will be another two or three year’s time? I also wonder if I can keep on sacrificing my own time and interest for my study for another few years to come!

Pressure + Stress = Crazy...

I have been through a lot of pressure lately, but, forcing another smiles in my life. It is very important that we bring laughter to people than sadness. I was trouble with my work, leaving me no where to go. Meanwhile, MBA examination is around the corner, and simultaneously, MBA part two is starting, with lot of preparation to be made. Furthermore, my promise to my new company to prepare a new branding proposal, has led me into the mud. Sometime, promises should not be made upon emotional need. You will tend to hit the wall. Now, I have learned my lesson.

Chap Goh Meh wor...

I had a nightmare last night! Or did I? Nope, it was not a nightmare; it was the noise of firecrackers that woke me up. After watching the “Condor Heroes” in Astro last night, I gave up the intention of doing my revision, and fell sleep. No long after that, a loud noise and some commotion woke me up, I looked at my watch and it showed 10.30pm. Only then I realize that it was the firecrackers, and today is Chap Goh Meh though! Naturally, I fell into my dreamland again, who knows, again, I woke up at 12pm, and that was the summit of the night, you can expect even worse. Anyway, it was terrible…even though, I am a Chinese but I never celebrate Chap Goh Meh before! Perhaps, everyday is New Year for me? Chap Goh Meh marks the ending of one New Year, also marks the long journey ahead before next New Year…

Picture & my Heart...

I watched a movie, when a female actor is giving the male actor some pictures of the past. The Male actor rejected it and said, “I don’t need that because she is always here in my heart.”……

Housing Loan.....

My parents finally put me under responsibility for my family housing loan. It becomes another burden for me now, and that I need another proper planning for my future and a stable financial condition. In fact, I was so reluctant to do that, but to convince my parent that I will provide them the best when I achieve my dream. All they need to do is to bear with the situation for another few years to come. What I can say about this though. I am the only one in my family who are highly educated, with the aspiration in life. My parent can only rely on me, that’s what they always say, giving me pressure.

Bad DAy......Bad Day....

I had a bad day today! A bad day that was almost spoiled my mood. I was asked to shift 40 cartons of Mineral Water to an orphanage in Peejay, using my company van. Apparently, the company van wasn’t register for business purpose, and what’s worse was, 40 cartons were too much for a small van, forcibly, the van still able to accommodate all 40 cartons.

Personally, I asked for 2 vans to shift the 40 carton of water. Since the other van was available. My maintenance manager helped to move all the water out from store room, but when I asked for another driver to drive the second van, he insisted that no one is free for the moment, and it was alright to put all 40 cartons into one van.

I also realized that it was against the JPJ law, at which the van will be over weighed! My maintenance manager convinced me that it is okay and helped me to shift the rest of the water into the van. Reluctantly, I drove away.

I haven’t even been a km away from my company, and I get caught with JPJ. Well, needless to say, a booking ticket ahead of me. It costs me RM 50 for persuasion, and you know what I mean though! Falling into this situation, either way is inaccessible, and I made my choice…

Gallls........Like.....WHat I like...

I was puzzled, confused, and suddenly feeling lost when I was being asked for the type of girl that I like. I started to ponder, what type of girl would really attract me. But I can’t seem to dig it out from myself.

I still remember many years ago, I seem to like those girls who are smart and presentable, and gradually, I prefer girl who are able to communicate well and understanding, eventually, I prefer girl who are highly educated and gorgeous. Apparently, Pretty doesn’t mean gorgeous, and gorgeous doesn’t equal to pretty.

I would prefer someone who is grace with personality of a princess rather than just pretty. Ironically, you will be able to come across this type of lady, but, mostly born with silver spoon that have been too much indulgence with little family value. I hate lady who can’t even survive with her own hand, so does man!

Some people told me, money speaks everything! As long as you are highly educated, rich and living at the high class society, you will be able to command perfection, even in relationship. You will be able to find what you like. Personally, I do not believe in it, even so, love may not be aesthetic anymore. It would become materialistic. Sometimes, relationship grows when both parties instill feeling on each others, they feel for each other, and willing to sacrifice for each other. Once again, I can’t be sure what type of personality I am actually looking for, and what do I like!!!

Gastric problem....killing me...

I woke up quite late today, and having gastric problem again. I had my lunch and vomit everything. Anyhow, I try to take something light to ease my stomach. It has been quite some time that I have gastric. I can’t remember how I was inflicted to gastric but it wasn’t please though. I got a message from another member of mine who we hang out together last night, she was having gastric as well, but I believe I was the worse. Meanwhile, I was thinking of going out for some light drink, thus, I message another friends of mine but she wasn’t reply, and I believe she’s still in dreamland and drunk. It was really fun to be able to hang out with friends; I like the feeling of forgetting every responsibility and problem in my life in the club, with the music and alcohol pumping to your blood. Sometimes, human being just needs to have some excitement in life; it would really stimulate you mentally and emotionally. Don’t you think so……?

Rush ...the First Time..

Today, my first time to club in Rush in Eastin Hotel. The place is cool, filled with ton of teenager. I am quite doubt with a place with so many teenager, and with cases of fight happened before. I presume it was a place for teenager to take pill and hit the song. I asked my colleague, and they said it is safe, and a clean place. Reluctantly, I laid down my suspicion.

We had fun, and took a lot of pictures to commemorate the hours. I was drunk half way through and stop drinking. Eventually become sober again after a while. When I looked through the pictures on that night, it surprised me that I was blush due to intoxication!

Life is CHallenginG...

I will be damned busy for the week to come. And I am starting to find myself losing grip of my daily routine. I wonder why I have to take on the challenge in every mean of my life. Especially my MBA study, I have to take two subjects this semester with one subject as self-study mode, and believe me, it is killing me. Now that I can join second year for the first semester but it clashes with my first year final semester. I have to start my class before I am able to finish my final exam. Everything seems to be challenging my persistence and patient.

Village...

I just realize that small village tends to have a strong bond with each other, with neighbor and residents who stays within the compound. They tend to care about each other, at which you will not find this in big city or hardly find this among Chinese community.

I must say, the progressive development in the country has brought much impact to our personal value. People tend to be more selfish and greedy, materialistic has become an essential surviving character in big city, if you are not strong enough mentally and ethically, you might be carried away by the moment that would lead to change in your personal value and perception.

But I was surprised to find the bond is still strong among us, relatives and, in our village. People still help each other even though my grandparent had passed-away many years ago.

Animal or TREE...

I attended my HRM MBA class on Saturday, and our lecturer Miss Choo, who used to work as the senior management in HSBC bank in Malaysia. “I like to ask personality question when in an interview, I tend to ask the interviewee to write a short essay of what they prefer to be, if they were given ‘a tree or an animal’, and you will find the answer vary according to individual”, Choo said.

Choo related her experience to us, she interviewed a lady at her twenties, and the similar question was asked. The lady preferred to be an animal and the reason was that she want to go around and pee at those tree instead of standing all alone at one place, in her essay, she said she want to be the top of all, controlling the entire tree, and not being controlled. To her surprise, the lady made it to the top management within two years time, with a proven sales record. She made cold call, pitch sales and many more.

If you are given a choice, would you like to be a tree or animal? Again, there is no right or wrong answer. If you prefer to be a tree, you may be suitable for job that is less challenging, meanwhile, if you choose an animal, and then an office job may not match your personality. Personally, I prefer to be animal, if it is a tricky question, I prefer to be HUMAN……

What IS REligion today?

I have a conversation with my relative in her fifties. She is a Buddhist, and commented on Karma. She said those who sell liquor will suffer bad Karma because they sell “drunk” to people, and sometimes people got into accident and die.

I was born in a multi-religion environment, undergone my secondary school in S.M.K.Seberang Perak and was transferred to St.Michael for form 4 and form 5, I was exposed to Buddhism, Taoism, Christianity, Muslim, Catholic and many more.

I also have friends from various religion backgrounds, and I was being persuaded to convert or to embrace certain religion, but personally, I prefer to be rational, and free-thinker.

Religion is formulated to control human being because we are vulnerable and easily been carried away by the moment, and only then, religion can bring us back to the right track, lighting our path.

Every religion teaches us something good, but if we believe too much that we can not ponder rationally would generally lead us to superstition.

If Liquor trader received bad Karma, then we should also condemn car maker as well because they lead to the increasing number of car accidents in Malaysia by selling car to Human Being! Or you should also condemn Kwok Foundation for producing sugar because it would leads to diabetes.

Another funny conversation with a relative of mine, explaining the benefit of becoming a monk, saying that it provides spiritual health. I wonder what would happen if everyone of us become a monk or nun!

Another funny escapade, I bang into a lady trying to talk me into adopting Christianity. I wouldn’t furious if she did not make her comment on other religion. She describes other religions as devil because it would lead them to disbelieve Jesus. She asked me to believe in god only.

I beg to all god, please correct the mistake made by Human being. What had happen to our world, even religion start to become commercialized!? I pray in front of Jesus when I am in Church, I pray to every god in every temple in my visit, because I believe in their existence, and I certainly believe they teaches people good and only help those who practice human kindness.

I will not blankly believe in a god, but they shall command my respect because they help human being psychologically and spiritually. What ever we do, as long as we do not jeopardize others in the process, we shall be in blessing.

Death....

Today is certainly not a lucky day perhaps. We were being informed about our God Grand Father’s death. He is a septuagenarian who has been suffered from heart disease, and unfortunately Doctor wasn’t able to carry out the operation due to his fragile health.

We expected this very long-ago, and trying hard to give him the good last-memory in life, and we believed everything has been done. Sometimes we thought we have a short life with so little time spared for our dream, and worse still, if we have not seen what we want to see.

I would rather appreciate every moment that I can live through my life, and rather chasing after my dream, to avoid disappointment later in my life even though I know, I may not got what I want, but at least, I try my best.

New Blazer...

I always wanted to make a blazer for myself, and trousers for New Year, but I only manage to meet up with my personal tailor today, and it will be ready only after New Year.

However, I was always believed in my own tailor and even the pricing is reasonable, I still remember I made an enquiring in Sungai Wang, for the pricing and material used. They told me it would cost me RM 500 for only the Top without trouser, meanwhile, the patent that I was looking for, would cost me RM 750. I was furious because there was no room for negotiation.

Surprisingly, over here, it cost me only RM 320 inclusive of trouser, and I made another two extra trousers which cost me only RM 65 each, it was cheaper than Kuala Lumpur which cost me RM 80 each. As you can see, RM 750 and RM 320 made a lot of different. You can make two here!

Same Old QUEStion....

I celebrated the same New Year every year, expecting the same question again and again. I can even forecast what is coming in the next two days in New Year, with an accurate and clear outcome, even easier than hitting a jackpot. Probably, I have been celebrating this New Year for 23 and half years! I am hungered for something different every year, but nothing much different though! At least, allow me to have some surprises, such as hitting “jackpot”! Then I shall remember this year!

Meanwhile, one particular question that the-CG- “Conservative Group” keep asking me!

This is how the conversation goes each time I start to have a little chat with the “Old Group”.

“Ah Yew ah! So tall already ar!” (translate from my grandma, grandpas’ dialect)

“Got girlfriends already or not?” (This is annoying, try to imagine I was asked at least 6 times a day! I can even tell you who will ask this question!)

My typical answer would be, “Nope, No time for girlfriend, I have to study and working at the same time, really have no time for this relationship thingy”

Once they know I have no girlfriend, they will start to talk around, in front of my parents and other relatives, “Why don’t want to find a girlfriend, you are not young already, your parent hunger for Grandson already!” (Basically, my parent never even thinks about it, they just like to make it up! I would just smile at this junction.)

Then they will start to do extra little thingy which we call “PAT”, what they would usually say is,
“Our relatives, XXdadadidadadi, his daughter is same age as yours, and still single, pretty and highly educated, I introduce you want or not!”


Arrgghhhhh……..

Gosh, that is what I expected as usual, I will usually pretend to drop the line and “ciow”.

In Kampung...

I am writing this in my grandpa’s house in Bukit Tambun, together with all the kids around me, making up a lot of noise, plus all the firecracker, firing in front of me. I must say, the New Year ambience is perfect.

But I can not believe my “baby laptop” had attracted much attention, children age from 8 to 15, with at least 10 of them started to throng around me, looking perplex. I was discombobulated by the squeeze-up, making me almost breathless.

I wondered how vulnerable and ignorant they are. They do not even realize that this little computer is called “laptop” or “notebook”. I don’t mind if a 5 years old kid asked me that, but a form 3 students asking me what is that little thing that look like a computer, is really hurt! Government spent million of dollars in education, and that’s why our Vice P.M had commented a few days back, that our investment does not produce the expected outcome.

KAmpung Valdor...

Have you ever heard about “Kampung Valdor”? That is where my grandparent stays, and most of my relatives are from Kampung Valdor. I read a little about the history of this village, and found out that it used to be one of the “black areas” as described by the British colonist. They cordoned off the areas to avoid the attack of communist. And later, it becomes a village. Most of the residents are Chinese, and even the Indian can speak good Chinese dialect, it is unbelievable.

1st Day of CNY...

Do you know what did I do for the first day of Chinese New Year? You must have wonder. I am so much indulged in doing my assignment! So ironic that I have nothing to do, but sat around in front of my computer, typing and thinking about my assignment. At least, I have little something to tell other when being asked about it. At least, It can serve me a good memory that I was busy doing my assignment on the first day of New Year! Cheers…

In Alor Setar...

I met up with Catherine, Phang, Yeow, Yong and Kooi. Catherine is currently working in SS 15 Subang as a programmer, Phang is working in Yu Nam Hair Center, but she had just resigned. Meanwhile Yeow and Yong study in TARC and USM respectively. Lastly, Kooi is working as a Mechanical Technician in Penang.

We chatted and reminisced our old time in secondary school, and wondered how stupid we look like. We started to talk about others who did not show up tonight. One by one, we counted and discussed, only found that some of them had already engaged, and some other posted overseas in Vietnam or Philippine. It will be quite hard to meet them up again, unless fate says so.

This brought me some thought about friendship, as long as our bonds are strong; distance doesn’t really matter at all. It is the memory that counts, nothing can be more valuable than a memory that allows you to experience the past again and again, without losing, and it belong to you forever; certainly, it must be something sweet and nice, not those nightmare childhood!

I hope every one of us enjoy our holiday and indulge in enjoyable recollection of past event, your memory!

In Penang...

I went down to Penang the day after I arrived in Kedah. I treat Penang as my second hometown due to my frequentation. I can’t say I like Penang that much, but there are some little memories I shall preserve for my own self.

I visited my friends who share the similar interest, and dream, someone who have a direction in life and know what they want to achieve. We wondered around and finally decided to stop by a restaurant around University Science Malaysia.

We chatted, and this friend of mine started to wonder, “Why our topics of discussion are so much different from my University pals. Once we went out, we usually talk about our careers and what do we plan to do in the near future. But when I was in University, I was quite pathetic to find out that University students around me are quite naïve and all they talk about are “Chick”, or better off, “where do loiter around, either in Mamak Stall or Some where at the beach side”.

Then I told him, jokingly, “Well, only those who are highly educated, with ability to think ahead, can talk like us, they are probably still in kindergarten unquestionably they are in University!”

Don fail to PLAN...

Leading a hectic life sometime pay off if you have a proper plan, with a direction in your life. Sometimes, you tend to work for people and never realize that you hit the edge of retirement, and still achieving nothing.

I have my five years plan ahead of me every New Year. And this time around, I came back with another five year plan of mine to discuss with my friends. I always think through every end of the year, as to what I’ve achieved so far during my journey, and plan another one year ahead of the remaining four years plan. Every successful personality has a direction and they plan ahead, if you fail to plan, you plan to fail!

Toll...

I was driving back to my hometown and passed through Ipoh toll, but the counter was closed (apparently when I passed by), so I didn’t manage to take the transit ticket. I thought it was free then, until I stopped by Sunagi Perak to re-fuel my car.

Out of curiosity I asked an old man in the station, if it is free (I would really like to thank PLUS for his generosity!). To my surprise, the answer wasn’t what I expected, “Where got? You need to take the transit ticket!” he said.

“I don’t know, the counter was closed, and there is no barricade, so I just drove through, following the lorry in front of me!” I explained.

“They will fine you for the lost of ticket, I would suggest you to exit at Kuala Kangsar because it is nearer, and the fine will be lesser”, he said.

Without further a do, I sped up and exited at the Kuala Kangsar. I told the counter stand-over everything that I knew of, and she was puzzled and asked, “Why didn’t they give you the ticket, you can not drive through, how can you do that?” Basically, I remembered she repeated “How can you do that, and why they didn’t give you” for four times!

Come on you are not here to interrogate me alright, just tell me what to do and get the hell over it! It was already one o’clock in the morning! Quickly, I stopped her for asking me further, and asked if anything I can do now.

She pondered for a while, and asked for my plate number, then said, “RM 3.50, please.”

GOtong-ROYOng...

What a “Gotong-Royong” that taught primary students about Open-Burning! Yes, I was jogging as usual at the lakeside, and the Primary school was located besides the lake. To my surprise, they had a small Gotong-Royong Campaign in school, led by two teachers, a young gentleman and a lady.

I felt gladden to see how active and energetic those primary students are. They collect wood and rubbish from the floor, and threw to a designated area. The other group was cleaning the drain, sweating like a pig.

After all, I thought they will pile it up and pack it with plastic before they dump it. However, they didn’t! The two teachers (so-called teachers) started to light the wood and rubbish with gasoline, despite the fact that there were ton of people walking, jogging and playing at the lakeside. We were basically inhaling all the emission and carbon dioxide! What can we say about them! All of us looking and feeling puzzle to each other at the lakeside, while staring at them!

GOtong-ROYOng...

What a “Gotong-Royong” that taught primary students about Open-Burning! Yes, I was jogging as usual at the lakeside, and the Primary school was located besides the lake. To my surprise, they had a small Gotong-Royong Campaign in school, led by two teachers, a young gentleman and a lady.

I felt gladden to see how active and energetic those primary students are. They collect wood and rubbish from the floor, and threw to a designated area. The other group was cleaning the drain, sweating like a pig.

After all, I thought they will pile it up and pack it with plastic before they dump it. However, they didn’t! The two teachers (so-called teachers) started to light the wood and rubbish with gasoline, despite the fact that there were ton of people walking, jogging and playing at the lakeside. We were basically inhaling all the emission and carbon dioxide! What can we say about them! All of us looking and feeling puzzle to each other at the lakeside, while staring at them!

CIVICism....

What can I say about Human Behavior and Human thought! It is sad to see that they simply allowing their pet to defecate at the lakeside. As usual, I engaged in my daily jogging, to allow my body to have some sweat, but I was pestered by the smell of feces at the lakeside. To my surprise, that pet owner brought their pet to the lake, and allowed their pet to dig and “shit”. I wonder where is our civicism?

Tired Of INTERVIEW...

I got an interview on Monday, and I started to feel tired of the entire interview that I have to go through. Undeniably, I have received many offers after my decision to leave my current company.
Perhaps, I was too choosy to join any one of the recommended company.

I believe rumors started to penetrate the office now, believe it or not, nothing is swifter than rumors. They claim, rumors can kill a person dignity and spoil fame, and I believe in it. I also believe that rumor has already reached the top management ear side. However, thing may change sometime, who knows, I may stay. Let’s keep our finger cross…

MPAJ...

This morning, I came across a scene where MPAJ was dismantling and confiscate a hawker stall. The lady fainted. Basically, MPAJ confiscated all her goods and even her stalls. Passer-by gathered to observe due to their curiosity, only made it worse. Sometimes, I wonder, why on earth they want to do their business without appropriate license. That is the risk you have to bear with though.

Result is OUT..!!

I got my result today, and it was something that I should be happy about, I got two distinctions and one credit, I thought I hardly get credit, and only pass that I can dream of. I took my exam too easily, and without much pressure in the week of exam. I still remember I went out clubbing. Perhaps, I was just trying to keep my anxiety for myself. But my reaction sometimes may not please other, since they were all trying to cope with their exam by burning midnight oil.

After I got my result, one of the MBA students came to me and asked with excitement, “Hi, Steve, what do you get for your exam”. I guess she must have gotten a good result then, before I answered her question, she started to boast about her result, “I got distinction for my economic, you see, sometimes last minute thingy work for me!”

I told myself “yeah, right, you will know if you fail”, I hate last minute work…

What an Acquiantance...

I must admit that studying and working at the same time, isn’t please at all. A part from having a tiring day, I almost lose my time for leisure. Fortunately, I still have time to get sweat!

When I was jogging today, I came across someone, who I innocently thought he might be an angel from god. I was resting at the lakeside after the long-distance jog, and someone hailing on me. He was an Indian guy at his late forties, I believe. Here was the conversation.

“Do you like fishing?”, he asked

“Yeah, kind of”, I answered with puzzle

“It is a very fascinating scene, the air is so fresh”, he expressed

“I agree with you though”, I answered again with puzzle, with concern that he might be a drug addict.

“Come closer, let’s have a chat”, he suggested

I pondered for a while, and walked forwards, and sat down besides him.

“My name is Karma, what about you?”, he asked

“I am Steve, you can call me ‘Tan’ if it is too difficult for you to remember”, I answered politely

“Where are you from? You do not look like local, you speak a different slang. What is your job, and where do you study?” he asked

“I just came back from Paris, I went to Australia & France last week”, he continued with his fancy talk and with many questions before I was able to think of the answer.

“Oh, I am local; I did my Degree in Penang, and currently working in a private University as a Public Relations Executive. It is great that you are able to travel around the world, what do you do then”, I asked with suspicious because he looked more like a drug addict to me, with his attired, short pants, slipper and a shattered T-shirt.

“I am sailor” he answered, and that explained why he got to travel around the world. The funny issue is, he asked for my name again. “What is your name again’, he asked, and I suspect that he might be drunk, but, acted calm and sober. Politely, I answered his question, mention my name to him with annoyance.

“You know what, I do not like fishing, here is the scenario, if you fall down the sea, the fish will eat you, and then, you are fishing and eat the fish. What can be better if you just don’t fish! Do you understand what I am saying?”, he related with his though.

As a matter of fact, I don’t understand a word! But, I nodded, acting as if I understand, just to avoid his disappointment and his long explanation again.

I pondered again, a drug addicted can’t possibly speak such fluent English with me, and perhaps he is really a sailor after all. I tried to continue our conversation and asked, “I have seen many who come here to fish, but they seem disappointed at the end of the day because they have just a little catch”.

“I do not believe it that, you should know, it is just like fisherman though. They have such a greedy though that they want a good catch each time, but they only come back with an average catch. This is because god wants to keep the rest for other fisherman, if they have a good catch every day, they will tend to go out more often and leave only a little for the rest of the group. It is fairness that counts”, he explained.

I ponder again, and I realize that he might be right to certain extent. He might not be drunk though. Meanwhile, it was getting late, and I can feel the mosquito, flying around my body just to get a taste of my blood. I quickly made a move with an excuse.

He tried to keep me there, asking me to talk to him for a while, just to keep him accompanies, but I insisted that I should go.

He looked at me for a while, and said okay and then, he advised, “Young man, remember one thing, not to believe in any one, but you, you need to make your own choice sometimes, good luck to you okay”.

I thought I understand the whole conversation ostensibly, but, practically, I can’t possibly figure out what was it all about. However, I did learn something about fisherman theory today!

Gosh...

I encountered something very embarrassing...The event finally started! The VIP was giving his talk, standing behind the rostrum. The VIP coughed a few times, hinting that he needed water (many of us assumed so!).

I was instructed to give him a bottle of water by my President. I run- up the stage, intended to give him the water bottle. Unfortunately, he did not notice me; perhaps, he was too obsessed with his topic.

I tried to place the water bottle on the Rostrum, at which I only found out that the rostrum designed in such a way that it was slanted; there was no where you can place a bottle of water on top of it. I was caught with surprise, trying to find a place to put the water, that would accessible to him later, with all the eyes looking at me.

I was anxious, and believe me, I looked down, and my superiors, Vice President, Manager and other who sat in the front seats, was hinting with their eyes, asking me to come down NOW! I had no choice but to put the water bottle on the floor, which was very unhygienic.

I am toally ALONE..

The event is supposed to start at 10am, and the committees are supposed to gather here at 9am, unfortunately, none of them show off yet, and therefore, I find myself sitting along in such a huge recital hall, toying around with my laptop. They have made some adjustment with my baby laptop, and worse still they back my background picture! Well, and they laugh on my nick as “prince”, I wonder, is this nick attract so much attention and laughter? Since Chinese New Year is around the corner, I hope today can be a better day for me to live on.

Oops… I finally notice someone coming in…

BOSS is Boss..!

I find myself hardly got time for my revision these few days, and I feel worried. I always believe in hard work, and only hard work can give you “confidence”. I was stuck with company event on Tsunami, and god knows, I was chasing the dateline. Two CDs were handed over to me on Monday afternoon for editing, and they need it on Wednesday afternoon for rehearsal, since it involves students, and students can’t possibly stay back 24 hours a day to help you, they need to attend class. It’s going to take more than two days for the editing to take place. However, in the midst of worry, they finally get it done on-time.

I am starting to feel uneasy about thing that has happened lately, losing trust from my CEO is one case. I believe there is no need for explanation over the matter. A leader must be able to analyze certain circumstances before they reach a conclusion, I hate leader who jump into conclusion and victimize innocent employees. It does not show your leadership skills, and worse, it involves me.

As an employee of a company, we always wish to work under a good boss, and this has always been a dream to many, that has never been realized. This is my third job and I can ensure you every boss is the same, and ironically, they are the boss!

Future.............

I doubt about my future, I wonder what I would be five years later. I know clearly that I will be doing my DBA next year, no matter what happen, hassle or problem, I insist on my dream.

I am getting clearer and clearer of what I want to be in future, a part from being a rich man; I wish to have more than a status, though.

Nothing can stop me from achieving my dream, but, I also realize that I am getting tired of climbing up the ladder now. I always remind myself that I need to keep my spirit going.

I had a conversation with my MBA lecturer, “How can we increase our market value” I asked sincerely. She said I am at the right tract now, because MBA can help to increase my market value.

I do not believe in paper qualification sometime, although, I am doing it now, but, please accept the fact that how much time do you have, to study in your lifetime, just to get a few more pieces of paper qualification for the sake of your market value.

I always believe in experience and your wisdom which people are able to notice, and that can help pushing up your market value, when I asked her, I was actually referring to what kind of experience and how to get myself notice! But she answered in a trivial way though.

Anyway, I looked at those Directors, they neither have leadership skill nor aggressiveness, but they are still a Director! Talking about value, they certainly worth more than other, but what make them worth that much? That is what I always ponder because I wish to be like them.

Future..Future.. and Future... then DREAM...

I still remember my diploma and degree graduation, I didn’t even keep the graduation photo, and that my parents have always grumbling about it. I never feel excited about my degree graduation. I didn’t even attend my Diploma Graduation though! I do not feel satisfied, not because of my result (I got distinction in diploma I and merit for Diploma II and second class lower for my degree, I consider myself as more than average though!) I do not feel enough, and I do not feel right to celebrate now because my academic journey hasn’t yet ended, and when would that be! It will end when I got my DBA! I can ensure you that I will be hell satisfy and happy when I finally finished my DBA, and that will be a few years to come (gosh, I am starting to worry about it now, why am I always worry about thing that haven’t arrive in my eye-sight!) and, I hope I can share it with all my friends at that time……

Cracking UP for MBA...

This is my final semester in year one, and I will be receiving my graduate diploma (if I get through it!) Yes, I am cracking up now. I realize that I tend to act confidence but I feel my nerve cracking though. Thinking about my second year MBA, I have received many advices from my senior as well as my lecturer, they unanimously, claims that second year MBA is hard. It is not a honey moon because it was modulated by University of Southern Queensland, and that, 50% Assignment and 50% examination based, meanwhile, you are consider fail if you fail either one! Well, I have never been worried about study, exam or assignment, but, I am worried if I have enough time for my second year MBA. Anyway, let’s see how thing going to turn around this year!

Looking AROUND...

Office politic affects efficiency of the company, and it always does! I was advise not to join Education field in such a young age, due to my aggressiveness from my past experience in my previous job, I caught my friends in surprise by joining the Education field, as they perceive education industry is a bit laid back.

I never regret in making my choice, and I like my superior who cares so much about me. Kit and Stephen have always been there to help me. But, due to strong political affair in my office, I must retreat.

I condemn office politic because it affects the efficiency of an organization, usually, the leader must try to foster the team work culture, however, I must say they fail to do so, and in fact, I think they do not even realize that, “political virus” is penetrating the office, and it is deadly virus for any organization.

I have been known to be a strong survival in office politic, but, in this situation, I must retreat. I remember once I was told, you can work 100% in office, but in a political office environment, you have to work 100%, plus another 100% (smart) to get yourself noticed! And certainly I will receive a lot of red eyes!

I have a few mentors, which I respect so much; they taught me so much since I was 13 years old. They taught me about surviving skills in society, in office and in life. They taught me how to make choice, set my principle and how to make thing right at the right time, and what’s more, they always like to discuss about strategies (certainly not business strategies, but ancient war strategies, which makes me feel like an old man! gosh, it was so bored! ) I do not know the usefulness of the discussion though I had spent 6 years with them, but slowly, I found it to be most useful when you are in trouble. Meanwhile, they called this as extra knowledge and surviving skills. God! I miss them so much; I must pay them a visit when I am back! Another 2 weeks time…

PERSONAL Value...

Talking about cigarette again, it reminds me about personal value, I do not want to expect some misunderstand of who I am. I am a person, who can adapt to everyone, but I have my own principle and value, and I stick to it totally.

I remember my conversation with my ex-colleague. She told me that it is not necessary to do what people want you to do, such as if you are entertaining your client, and your client is a drinker. You do not need to drink with them if you do not like drinking! What if they go for prostitution, would you follow them just to please them and get the account?

My explanation to her is quite simple, I believe every one has its market value, and though, everyone has their own personal value too. The strength of the personal value varies accordingly to their personal perceived moral value.

As for me, I am willing to drink, and I am willing to smoke with my client, but certainly not prostitution (since it is illegal), thus, I can do anything, but must be morally acceptable and legal in sense.

Here again, I believe everyone must have a clear direction of what they want to be in future, and yet, you must set your personal objective together with your perceived value and how far are you willing to let go! This is to ensure that you make no mistake in achieving your dream!

Very often, my friends told me they would like to earn a lot, and lot of money, and willing to do anything for it, and yet, their personal, moral value is low, because they involve in illegal activity such as selling VCD, Hand phone (Water!), evade tax (sometimes), bookie and many more! I realize that those trading can earn you lot of money, and I was once offered to be part of the team, and lucky enough I pretty rational in making my choice! I believe in putting my own effort, and I do not believe in fast money!

Sincerity..RESPECT in FRIendship...

I make new friends out of sincerity and respect, even in internet; I have never expected anything in return but just friendship. But, sometimes, I get misunderstand by some friends of being too nice.

I do not know if I am correct in the sense of my principle. Whenever I meet someone, I tend to take the few minutes of pondering, before I start to adapt myself. I will guess what they like and try to match their expectation. I always believe in doing what my friend likes to do, will certainly earn their trust and foster a better and long term friendship, but must morally right.

I spoken to one of my friends who I haven’t meet for years in MSN, after sometime of chatting; she expressed her dissatisfaction over my character, which I suppose to be serious but turn into a frivolous chatting most often. She said she though I am serious guy when we first chat in MSN. (Please do not misunderstand, I mean serious in the sense of not making assumption too much) She said that I like to flatter at which I never though I am! Anyway, perhaps, we haven’t been meeting for sometimes. I thought, at her young age, she might like a friend that can think at her age, I do not realize that she is such a mature lady though; sometime I might crack a few jokes just to lighten up, and certainly not those stupid adult jokes!

But something that can tell you, I always chat sincerely and with respect, I come in peace and with no intention! I do flattering sometimes, but not flirt at least. And If I compliment on certain thing, I compliment it with my heartfelt sincerity, and I never lie. If I said you got a good smile, you certain do, I won’t say something you don’t have. I would just tell you straight if you do not look good (that explain why some people out there do not like me! But please forgive me, I am in the transition period since I joined PR line, I know how to talk in nice way, at least turn you around the bush before bringing you back to right track!) But please do talk to me if you are irritated with what I say or do, sometimes!

CLUBBING...LOL...

I must say, I really enjoy myself tonight; it has been quite sometimes of laying back. My colleague, Sim asked me out to Thai Club, (initially, they said Cowboy Club, and I was like “huh”, I have never hear about the name around the areas, and eventually, I found out that it is actually Thai Club! Man!) I reluctantly turn it down, I fell in a dilemma where, at the same time feeling tired, but also wish to join them.

I went shopping in Sungai Wang, it was around 9 pm, I gave him a call, asking if he would like to hang around before going out clubbing, he said he is on his way out. Well, I ponder for a while, since I am already in Sungai Wang, What the hell, why don’t just join them, and OK! I ask him to pick me up then. I wait for almost an hour, and usually, if I were given much time to think, I would really change my mind in last minute, so much I want to call him and say, “hey, bro, I think I am pulling out”. But at last, I didn’t.

We went to Thai Club, and I have the pleasure to meet Cat and Vivian, Both of them are friends of my colleague, Lilian. I must say, I always have fun going out with Sim (you are the man!) Perhaps, I consider myself as too old and feeling great to be able to join someone who feel so young! (Well, I admit, I feel damn OLD, and trying to be young)

Meanwhile, Thai Club as usual, had always been crowded after 12 pm, and yet, they still ushering those late comers up. We barely have our own space to dance, and eventually, we planed to move out. We went for second round; Vivian brought us up to “Cream” in Renaissance Hotel nearby. We continued to enjoy ourselves over there, and tell you what, I like that place, “Cream” appeared to be quite new, I believe, and it is clean probably due to the fantastic design and ambience! We dance our way till late at night and went back around 4pm. It was tiring but enjoying, and Vivian was drunk, Sim and Logas were drunk too. But they insisted that they are not DRUNK! (Come on, they are really drunk to claim not DRUNK!) Anyhow, they safely arrived home at least, I wasn’t drunk that night and, unbelievable, I realize that I can drink! But, I had to accept the brutal fact that I had a terrible headache and I can’t even sleep well that night. I wake up in the morning and vomit before I continue dreaming!

A few funny things happen that night, I was driving Vivian’s car and sent her back (Cat was in the car, planning to stay over with Vivian), Sim was at the back following me so that I can hop into his car later. I was worried that I might speed to fast, and reminded Cat to look over me, to remind me if I speed up.

I did my part though, because I kept asking her if I was speeding too fast, I didn’t really look at the meter though, and Cat was like “no, you are not speeding”. Who knows Sim can not catch up with me, and what’s worse is that, Cat was drunk by that time (yeah, we only realize that when we met up the next day). I gave Cat my blazer because I am worried she might catch flu later, as she appeared to be cold. And upon arriving, my blazer was passed on the Vivian. I think Vivian had a short term memory lost after drinking. I took the courtesy to SMS her in the morning, and she replied “Are you Steven?” she asked because she saw my blazer had my name on it, and she don’t even realize that I am Steven. I do not know that she is so drunk! Anyway, that night, I was having a terrible headache that I don’t even realize until I jump into Sim’s car. And, they though I am drunk!

Skepticalllll...

I am skeptical about relationship now and then, and I keep telling girl that I am not what they are looking, and that I am not a dream guy. What happen to me? I wonder, I have never been so lame. I still remember my first love during my secondary school. I was advice and encouraged going after whatever that I feel right and LIKE. And from there, I brushed up my confidence, after seven different relationships with girls at a different time (need to make it clear!) (and yes, since form one, till three and half years ago), I started to feel tired of relationship, some of my pals even picking on me as becoming gays, just to force me going! Well, I don’t know what has happen to me, I am just afraid of losing out, and I don’t mind if you want to call me pussy or what so ever, but I am really tired of all that, perhaps, I need some more time to get myself back to the rail!

Healthy.....LIFESTYLE...

I always believe in adopting a healthy lifestyle, though, I smoke sometimes for certain reason (entertainment) (I do whatever people do, as long as it is not illegal! I call this adaptive). Talking about cigarette, I do not condemn smoker but to advise them to smoke less. As for me, I have insisted myself to give it up two months ago, and yes, I did, but occasionally, I still smoke as in “occasionally”.

Sometimes, I just can not stop smoking totally, not because of the “virus” in me, but of other people, half of my friends smoking, although, I seldom hang around with them, but whenever we go out clubbing or hang around in Star buck, I have to make myself smoke again. Certainly, Not because I afraid of being their laughter, but I do not want them to feel bad, What would you feel if you are doing something that your friends do not like or not enjoying to do so! If you care about your friends very much, you will probably give it out. However, it is very difficult from my part to expect so; I rather join them since I do not do it all the time. And certainly, they will ask me out again in future, because they feel my existence in their group.

OutLOOK...

I do not know why, but, to find myself quite concern about my outlook, and to give a perfect first impression to those I meet. I have always been into sport, to get myself sweat. This is the only way to keep myself active and in shape. And, I always believe that, to succeed in any field of your expertise, it is not just about your knowledge that counts, but also your health. You need to be healthy in order to strive better.

WhAT's WRONG with my LIFE...

I was so blur! Perhaps, my life has been too hectic. A week ago, I went to a mini market around my residential area, intended to buy a bottle of body shampoo. I looked around and picked up a brand, with hurry; I paid at the counter and went back. What happen next is, I found out in my bathroom that it is a “liquid hands wash”! (Fortunately, I realize right away, at least, not after a week of using!) Can somebody tell me what is going on in my life?

That is not the end of the story, I went to a Chinese herb shop today, intends to buy a bottle of hair shampoo, and so happen that I pick a brand. I thought that is the brand that I am looking for, and I paid at the counter without much thought. I arrived home and planned to take a nice bath after the long working day, and “gosh!” I thought the shampoo is actually out-dated because it produces no foam,I thought I miss-bought “liquid hand-wash” again, but, fortune enough, I get it quite correct this time, I BOUGHT A CONDITIONER INSTEAD OF HAIR SHAMPOO! (At least, it means for hair!) And again, can somebody tell me what is going on with my life! I can not even get it right, between body shampoo and liquid hand-wash, and which one is hair shampoo or hair conditioner! I think I need therapy!

WhaT a MaN...

I had a rehearsal in Eastin Hotel, Damansara in the afternoon; it is about an event with disabled person. Meanwhile, I bump into a business man at his forties, I assume, talking in his phone. “Hello, I am Mr.XX, calling from Kota Baharu”, he said softly. Perhaps, the phone operator can not comprehend his language and asked again, the business man then shouted in the phone, “I am calling from “Kota Bharu”!” As you can see, we are obviously in Damansara, Petaling Jaya. I bet he is drunk!

PERsonality TEst...

I had supper with my colleague and a friend on mine at Steven’s corner tonight, we were chatting, and brought up the topic about personality test and so far. She related her experience in her club in University that her superior likes to use questioning during interview to gauge personality of the interviewee. We had a little argument over the topic. As far as my own concern, I do not believe in personality test, though, sometimes it proved to be quite accurate, relating my personality. Yes, I did personality test before, and the result does not please me. I would say, human-being like to blame external factor when committed mistake.

It reminds me about psychometric test, adopted by some company to test the interviewee’s personality before he/she actually recruited. I do not condemn personality test, but, I believe company should have a set of written personality specification. For example, company will not employ staff that are dishonest, crafty or politician.

The reason of Psychometric test is to match the right people with right job, nevertheless, it has it flaw though. If psychometric test is widely implemented, employee is unable to change their field of expertise, if by chance, they would like to learn or experience new field! If I am in P.R for years, and would like to work under Sales, I might not be recruited anyway.

It kills the leaning process, and what’s more, it inflicts human-right! We lost our privacy. How on earth we allow other to know our personality!

Our conversation carries on until she told me about my personality as best describe as “Sanguinian”. You may wonder what Sanguinian is. If you flip through dictionary, you will find Sangunian means a person with striking personality, best equip with out-spoken and extrovert character, at which I believe I hate the most! (And yes, apparently, I realize that I actually hate myself!) It moulds me into someone that I do not want to be, and I feel faked (as I always do!).

Internet Plafform..stupid ler...

Perhaps, I was not properly understood by some of my friends, or those who has just known me. I always embrace the attitude of knowing more friends, even in my daily life meet-up or internet chatting without much intention. I always believe every human being look alike. Sometime I was being misunderstood as those Internet freak or jerk that goes around hunting for food, and keep inviting internet friend for an outing!

Well, I only ask my friend out for coffee because I like coffee, and I always go for a cup of coffee alone with my “baby” – Laptop. I do not mind if anyone can join me and have a nice chat! Unfortunately, they would perceive me as those “brain-dead” net friends that mean for nothing!

Anyhow, Many of those internet friend do not like to meet up with people due to the following reason; they are too shy to talk (I really condemn that as I wonder how on earth are they going to work for the society if you feel shy to talk!), secondly, they only want to cling to their group of friend and do not bother of knowing more (that is very stupid to confine yourself, I always ask myself, if I can hit 100, why should I go for 80!If I was given chance to know somebody, why should I confine myself then, regardless of how she/he look like, as long as he / she behave well!)

Seed and Human....!!!

Relationship is supposed to be unique, passion and aesthetic! Once I remember, from an elder friend of mine. He conscientiously link relationship to “seed” that practically help us to understand the fundamental behavior of male and female toward preliminary stage of relationship.

“Male and Female like to scatter the “seed of passion” around, and they will wait for the seed to grow, eventually, they will choose the best out of it. I do not deny that selfishness does constitute part of human behavior.” He said.

I would believe he is right in some point, and I would like to further emphasize that as long as we have our own principle, ensure that human emotion is not a victim of our action in relationship, and it, still alright.

Almost Get KILLed..!

Gas leaking can kill! I was lucky to wake up early today. When I walk down the ground floor, and found my stupid cooking gas leaking, with the gas already filled up the whole house. I rush open all the doors and windows to have the air circulated, and clean it out. I wouldn’t be here, if I did not wake up that early. That remind me about Tsunami whereby it struck without any indication!

Acquiantance....!!!!

Hanging out with friends is always a pleasure in life. I struck up an acquaintance with Kitty, and at the same time, met-up with Geraline that I haven’t seen for more than 3 months. Also, do not forget about my pal, Sim – de blusher (He’s going to kill me if he realizes I gave him such an astounding and sensational nick!). I must say, I enjoy that night more than ever.

Upon arriving home, I ponder, is relationship so important to human-being? I can not possibly find the answer even with my head cracking. Relationship somehow has to do with “Love”, and Love has to do with “like”, and eventually it has to do with “friendship”. I would call this as “relationship stages” that you need to go through, something like the level of education you went through since kindergarten!

My Philosophy..Strength..weakNESS...

Personal Philosophy

-Hard-working

I believe in hard- work and work as smart as you are able to. When you are able to sacrifice your time for something; eventually, you will receive recognition from what you have sacrifice, and finally lead to wealth. Wealth can come in the form of increment, promotion and etc.

- My Strength

-Self disciplined decision maker

-Dedicated employee

-People oriented

-Outstanding leadership qualities

-Extrovert & Gregarious

-Excellent Communication Skill

-Ability to Work under Pressure

-Sense of commitment & responsibility

-Ability to Work with Minimum Supervision

-High Adaptability to working environment

Weaknesses

-Highly Ambitious

Sometimes, it may not be good to be ambitious. I always like to set myself a target that difficult to achieve because only then I believe, I have to push myself to the limit. Sarcastically, I always fail to achieve what I set but at least, I hit the second grade, still! I will get low for a few days, and evaluate my mistake, and find out the reason why I can not achieve my “dream” target.

-Stubborn

Whenever I suggest a good idea, I tend to stick to it unless I was convinced that my idea isn’t good enough. Very often, management will just kill off my idea without proper explanation. I get frustrated very easily.

-Soft-Hearted

When I was required to be assertive, I tend to be soft-hearted because I always take into account other’s feeling. However, I am improving on my leadership skill from time to time, and keep reminding myself that I need to be assertive to get thing done in time.

-Strongly dislike protocol and red tap in organization that ruin efficiency

I do not prefer protocols to be set tight but I have to I will follow with much dislike. I always try to fight against protocols that kill off the efficiency of employee. I like thing to be done fast, and I want to see everything run smoothly without any delay. And, very often, protocols lead to delay, especially in P.R lines.

-Impulsive

I tend to be impulsive especially when I was blame for thing that I did not do. I have tried to always remind myself to calm down. Thus, I believe I can change my weakness into strength.

-Easily de-motivated

I can take advice from other, some usually advise come with criticism. Thus, I tend to get de-motivated easily. I am a person with high-self-consciousness. Thus, if I happen to be de-motivated, I will need one or two day to retrospect, and improve myself. I believe this is my weaknesses because it affect my passion in what I am doing, thus I need to remind myself all the time, that I can not be influenced by what other had said.

Finally..my PERSONAL Objectives....

Money-In our world, money is a must. The amount of money that you need depends on what you want and how much you believe you are worth. I see money as a tool that enables me to function freely within my world and accomplish my dream – and I have some pretty big dreams! So I want enough money to make me financially free.Undoubtedly, money can not buy or guarantee me happiness. I also know that not having money doesn’t guarantee me happiness either! Thus, I do what I love to do and because I believe it’s of value to others. If what we do is of value, then we can expect and accept abundance in return.

Creativity- I love bringing things into existence that weren’t there before. Creativity is my key to personal growth and empowering others. It’s my vehicle of self-expression, of putting who I am and what I do out into the world.

Acknowledgement-I believe in working hard, and getting what we deserve to receive. I fight for acknowledgement from my superior, friends and others.

Integrity and trust- Integrity, loyalty, friendships come under the heading of trust for me. I want to trust people because I want people to trust me. I only want to be in relationships where everyone is trusting of each other.

Contribution- I believe in making contribution for who I work for, without making contribution, you will never receive appreciation from others. And, contribution is a measurement of how much I worth for.

Dare to dream- we must be dare to dream because only dream can drive human toward making great achievement!

Catching Up...!

I was quite happy today, at least, I am able to meet up with my classmates in Sri Hartamas and have a nice chat. They just came back from United Kingdom, graduating with a degree in accounting and now pursuing ACCA. I am always proud to have friends that can be so clear about their direction in life, and I like to be with them, at least, it gives me some “push” in doing what I want to do!

We all have the same perception that life is a learning process, and that we should not stop learning, one day if you find yourself losing interest in what you do, I would say, it is time for you to retire from your job!

Once I watch a movie, featuring a lawyer giving lecture to the practitioners. I can remember neither the movie title nor the actor, but I can still remember vividly what he had said. “One day when you wake up in the morning, and look at the mirror, if you find your job super-bored, I would advise you to retire, because you are not a lawyer anymore!” he said to those practitioners. You need to love what you do, only then you find your job challenging, and it is a long-lasting one.

Student LIFE Again...!

Finally, I went back to my study life again after two weeks of holiday! I find waves of pressure, like water pouring down from my head to toe!

I was being characterize as “Smart” by some of my classmate because of de-stress and out-spoken outlook, but, truthfully, I feel stressful inside of me.

Perhaps, I am PR that born to make people happy. I wish I can be someone that able to act according to feeling and emotion. Sometimes, I feel myself too fake to be myself!

Or perhaps I have wont to make people happy, and find it difficult to adjust now.

Just LIKE Superman someTimes...

You tend to see Hero or Heroes only when you have problem, and you tend to see well-wishers only when there is a disaster?

Undoubtedly, there are many people who need help, such as those orphanages, old folk’s homes and many more, who run without public support. Their life can be better if we are willing to contribute, but, many do not see the importance in it. When human-being are approached for donation, they tend to shun away. Meanwhile, When Tsunami struck, you tend to see them donate thousand of dollar for the victim. I do not mean to be causticity, but it is a fact that worth our observation. Those who never even want to care about the needy around them tend to donate thousand of dollar and appear in newspaper!

If it is for the sake of publicity, I would rather feel ashamed for them because their donation just not out of sincerity. However, there are those who donate out of sympathy deserve our recognition and respect. Hopefully, in future, they would also show their concern to those needy around them.

Meanwhile, I find it even more sarcastic, when the rich is willing to spend their fortune for a huge mansion and sport car but not even willing to contribute a cent of two for the needy. I wonder why human characters are shape in such way…

Fell DOWN the Staircase...Embarassing..!!

I was walking in the walkway in my office, and waved to one of my students, without realizing that there is a “Spiral Staircase” in from of me. I tripped over and fell down, Luckily, I can still stand up, I wonder what would happen if I “ROLL” down!

I feel so embarrassing, but then, “so what!” everyone experiences fall down before, why I should bother so much! (Apparently, I was trying to comfort myself though! I was waving to a student that kind of caught my attention, you know!..gosh...)

I still feel the pain down my knee…..

First Lunch...Late DINNER..2005...

After I had my very first lunch for year 2005, I left rushing for another appointment with a friend of mine in Sungai Wang, we had dinner and window shopping in Sungai Wang until we came across a photo machine, and that, you have to pay a little as 24 buck for a few snaps. I was pulled in by her youthful and joyful gesture.

In fact, she is a cute little girl that always believes she’s an old lady now, believe it or not, she isn’t old! I like her a lot, but sometimes I couldn’t figure out though, what’s in her mind (How much I wish to understand!).

We went down to basement together, and there was a group of Rascal I would presume, came in together with us and they were fooling around in the elevator, with us standing at another side of the corner in the elevator. I was beset with worry that she might be hurt or flirted, that I move a step forward with my back a bit slanted against them, at least, block the stupid scene of those guy fooling around!

An uncommon, unusual, soft of feeling surging inside of me, I wonder, why am I feel so worry, perhaps, she is too vulnerable……

CIVICism..02...

Another escapade I came across today, I’ve done with my jogging, and on my way back. There was a motor bike; cruising fast enough to challenge the angel of death, threw a pack of rubbish to the road side. Basically, the area where the package landed was not a rubbish dump! It was just another pedestrian walk-way! That guy was lucky, if he was trying to throw to my side of lane, I will certain pull him down from the bike, and kicked his ass!

A little DIFFerent...

A little different today in Jaya Jusco Starbuck, though, without wire5 connection here, it does create some different, because I can’t do my internet surfing as usual!

I am here again, to meet up with another internet friend, who happens to be a Gemini! I wonder sometimes, why am I am obsessed with Gemini; probably I am a Gemini who wishes to meet someone that share the similar interest as I do!

However, the brutal fact does reveal that Gemini sometimes does not share the similar nature, but, there’s the least similarity, is that they tend to be very friendly. I find Gemini as I do, appear to be amiable!

I never believe in horoscope, since, nether statistical observation nor proven record to relate the accuracy of horoscope in our daily life!

But, I do believe that the ubiquitous of Horoscope, and the prevalent and domination of Horoscope belief seems to be part of our life now, thus, it is harmless to read a little of two about Horoscope, as the enlightenment in our life.

Like or LOVE....

I wonder why couple usually confuse between “loves” and “Like”, if you believe love is a black magic, then you should be more careful next time before you click with anyone you like, instead, you should choose those you really love, not like! If you do not believe in black magic, then it is time for you to believe in it! You can like anything but you can not love more than a thing because love is supposed to be very passionate and aesthetic.

Very often, we tend to be carried away by our emotion at the moment, and make a wrong decision, and later we tend to confuse if we love him/her. What is worse, when you tend to regret breaking up with your previous boyfriend / girlfriend!

This has been a norm in urban relationship, though, we can not figure out why is it happening here and then, without any solution to the problem. Is love a black magic? And, you tend to regret after you wake-up / being released from the black magic? Lastly, is it too late for couple to say no? The thought goes on……