Prince feels...

Prince feels so much for princess, he has so much to tell, but little to spill out whenever he sees princess. Princess shares many of her personal life from love to family with him, and that make prince a little guilty to tell her his story. This is because prince starts out the relationship with the assumption of ‘let bygone be bygone’, but somehow, this can not run away when time comes. Prince still has to allow princess to have fully access to his past.

Prince played the ‘truth and dare’ game in Langkawi, whereby, everyone had to speak the truth when was asked to do so. Mr. Big Brother asked prince about when he lost his virgin, somehow, male species do not have such thing as virgin, to rephrase it, would better term ‘the first time’, prince answered, 16 year old. Princess questions how many relationship has prince been through, but prince was just too afraid to be too transparent after all. However, not to be transparent will not be able to build trust in relationship, and thus prince decided to spill out.

Prince was with someone at the age of 16, and they had the first time. For a teen who knows a little about sex will certainly like to know more at this age. He believes so, until now, every one will have their first time, it’s a matter of early or late. After that affair, prince had a few more relationships which kick start of his life. He couldn’t remember the number of girl he has been before, but truly, prince was real in every relationship. Sometimes things happen and there’s no possible explanation to that. Prince led a totally different life when time goes by, until 5 years ago, when prince met with his ex. He put up more than1100% of his feeling, and she was always in his future that can foresee until she went overseas to study. To not disturb her study, and further, allowed her not to feel the commitment of hanging along with prince even both of them realized that distance can be a problem. Prince was then made his first move to initial the broke up by not contacting her. It ended happily 3 years back, and from that onwards, prince totally shifted his focus on study and work, getting a good grade was important for prince.

Prince has been through 6 relationships as he can remember, but a short-term relationship as he would presume, but prince feels real for each relationship. There were too many reason for each of the break up, simply by difficult in communication and different types of behavior which brought about each broke up. Most importantly, prince does not trust relationship, and he put only a parcel of his feeling, he was too afraid to trust and love too much. When time goes by, prince learns, in order for a relationship to last long, trust is very important. Security is even important to him. Thus, he is now tried his ever best to make focus on trust and building trust in relationship, especially when he met princess. He realizes that he love princess very much, that trust can be the only element to determine the duration of the relationship. He is too afraid to tell princess about what his life in the past because he afraid that princess cares too much. He doesn’t want to lost princess just because he is stupid and ignorant in the past about relationship. But prince has decided to answer every question that may post by princess about his life, and he has even swear to do that no matter how, who knows what will happen next but prince knows this is important at this moment…till then…